Saturday, February 14, 2009

bitter/sweet


february 14th.  

today, 3 years ago, i began taking the required barrage of drugs starting the IVF process.  i tried to document it as best as i could through the blog. 
what a scene.  the drugs got the job done but did a number on me on so many different levels.  

today, ida is 4 weeks old.  yes, an entire month has passed since she was born.  i thought 3 years ago i would have a 3 year old by now.  here i have a 1 month old.  who knew...

these last 3 years have been exciting, difficult, worrisome, wonderful, sad, sad, sad.  you never know how things are going to turn out.  

i am so thankful ida is here.  i have this illustrated print in my house of a long road {see above}. in the distance is a green light, but every few feet getting to that green light is a stop sign on either side. written on the road is "patience".  that is how the last 3 years has felt to me.  every time i look at that print it speaks volumes.  now that ida is here, i feel like i have finally made it to that green light and i can now "go".   

4 comments:

Bethany said...

I love that print -- what a great message!

Alysha Sladek said...

i love that print too. i'm glad you're at the green light :)

herkimer fam said...

Your story is so inspiring. I love your print also and the message is so great for those who have given up on hope. Congratulations on achieving your green light. Now "go" and enjoy her!! Thanks for sharing your struggle.

natalie said...

Jess, I love the print and can really relate to the sentiment. What a long difficult road, but isn't it sweet when you finally reach the green light, it's like the clouds part and you can see the sun again. I'm so glad you made it, she's so beautiful. Enjoy the sun! Love ya