i have officially decided that procrastination is a big problem. for me, to me, about me.
i have been trying to put my finger on why i just don't DO the task that needs to get done. why do i procrastinate? am i lazy? am i retarded? am i scared i'll get everything done and nothing will need me to get it done? something always needs to be done. so why do i put off the filing until its a mountain or wait until something becomes overwhelming before i act on it. i clearly need some counselling.
i bought a book last night. "the happiness project". i can't wait to read it, i am scared to read it, what am i going to have to change? change is hard. i've got to change. change is good. change is great.
it's been such a weird time/place/sphere here at burtonsnorth. we are in-between change and homes and plans and stuff. it is hard to document when things are always up up up in the air.
one of my very best friends had a baby on monday. a little girl named mia. the picture she sent of her is so sweet. i talked with megan hours just before she had the baby and when i got off the phone i bawled my head off. i missed her, i was excited for her, i was nervous for her. i still don't know why i had such an emotional response. like a waterfall of emotion busting through a big fat dam.
i made a quilt for little mia that i haven't sent yet. PROCRASTINATION. its on my list of things to do.
believe me. i've got to change.
